THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS
When we talk about happiness, we are definitely taking about something temporary. At this stage of life, I have realized that there is nothing like continuous happiness. It’s either you mentally inscribe that you cannot always be happy, or you find something that brings you constant joy amidst whatever Higi-Haga going on in your life.
Life is vain. Reality is Painful. Existing means readiness to solve one problem after the other. These are all statements we make almost daily. The Truth is that life was made to be a series of test after test. However, we humans are not grateful enough. I tend to ponder about happiness a lot. I realized that happiness is temporary. I’m not trying to be insensitive, and I acknowledge that we all go through our personal chaos, but most times we bring pain upon ourselves. I realized that we do not allow ourselves to live and savour the good moments enough.
Humans pray a lot for things they love. We worry a lot about things we want, only for it to happen or arrive and then we start wishing for something else. This keeps going on and on, and we are all guilty of it. Reminds me of when I was worried about finding a good place to serve and was wondering who would help me secure it. My sister kept saying when the time comes, everything would unfold as Allah wants it. Truly, it did happen and I effortlessly got the place I wanted. However I enjoyed the place for a while and I still do, but all I worry about recently is how to secure a job and i have not even finished serving yet!
It takes awareness to change things. This is what keeps happening in our lives. We continuously worry about the next phase of our lives, forgetting that we are currently in a phase of life that we have prayed relentlessly to Allah for. So why do we keep worrying about something that may or may not happen? Why don’t we appreciate our present and wait for the future to unfold itself? Why don’t we put all our trust in Allah (s.w.t) when he is the Al-Mu’ti (The Giver), Al-Muhaymin (The Overseer) and Al-Barr (The source of goodness)?
I have realized that the life of worry is not what I want for myself. I want to take life in a piecemeal. Gradually. Drop by Drop. I want to experience the little things and withdraw from the triggers. I want to live in tawakkul. I want to find happiness amidst the inevitable chaos of life. I don’t want to be a sad, bitter or an angry person. Life is not that deep. I want to detach my happiness from anyone or anything. My major goal for the year is to feel the little things and find positivity in every situation. I will get back to you in December for a feedback.
My thoughts as always,
Benazir.
